You know how I feel about the vitrue of selfishness!

And that’s why I follow you, sir! I just reread Anthem and was feeling particularly empowered!

things that get in the way of doing what we need to do for ourselves. Work, family ‘obligations’, housework..blah blah blah. I have recently decided that it’s ok to be what others consider selfish, and just do something for myself every day. Whether that’s getting in some form of exercise, taking a nap, reading a book, taking a class- I know I’m a better person for it.

To me, this is not selfish. This is selfpreservation. There’s nothing wrong with doing for others, but only if youwant to, not just because you feel obligated. Never cheat yourself out of what you need in order to take care of someone else. There’s no way you can be everything for everyone. This is a hard lesson to learn.

I used to feel guilty that I wanted to get out of the house and run when I had a baby boy to take care of. I know now that I’m a better mom, wife, friend, etc., when i’m taking care of myself as well.

That being said, I am going outside and walking my miles in the gorgeous, pollen- laden street.

of all of you who have every weekend off.

I do love that I only work 3-4 days a week, but sometimes I hate working when everyone else is off.

Wah wah wah. I’m done whining now.

I did 5 miles on the elliptical when I got home this afternoon- this is much easier on the bladder than running. I would have walked outside, but it’s raining. It’s weird how I don’t mind a rainy run, but a rainy walk just seems like too much.

I am making chicken enchiladas for dinner and the onions and chilies are smelling soooooooooooo good right now that there may or may not be drool forming in the corner of my mouth.

In other news, I bought 5 lottery tickets. Today could be the damn day.

almondsofjoy asked: I have like little to no knowledge of child birth, but I heard that if you have a c-section with one baby you have to have the second one the same way. If this is false, I'm going to smack my friend. Either way, I support you 100% if you want to push your new baby girl through your vagina.

You can choose a second elective c-section or you can try for a Vaginal Birth after Cesarean(VBAC). It’s all about finding the right doctor who will support you and give you all the options. So go smack your friend! = )

mollierunsherbunsoff asked: I can totally understand wanting a VBAC! I've never had a csection, but i cant imagine the recovery is fun. My midwives put me on a few herbs to get my uterus and cervix all ready, and I honestly believe they helped. I was only in labor for 3 hrs, and as much as it hurt like hell, Maggie came out pretty quickly. I'm not sure how far along you are, but starting at 35 weeks, you can start taking 5000-8000 mg of evening primrose oil and this liquid stuff called "gentle birth". google gentle birth.

Thanks for the info about the herbs. I will definitely try that. I am 26 weeks and I am doing everything I can to control my weight gain and be as healthy as I can be. That’s all I can control and I’m feeling pretty positive about my chances! I appreciate the support more than you know!

• Dr’s appt @ 0945 (my husband is still freaking out about me wanting to attempt a VBAC)
• Tackling Mount Polyester (the laundry is ridiculous)
• Taking Charlie to the park so he’ll sleep all night

My doctor is the head of Obstetrics at my hospital. He has delivered THOUSANDS of babies over the last 25 years. My husband is still stressed about the idea that my uterus might rupture (risk is <1%). I really don’t want another major abdominal surgery to recuperate from. He thinks it’s a pride issue. That I want to push a baby out of my vagina just to prove a point. Really. I think it’s more about him being incredibly worried about something bad happening to me or the baby, but he’s just kind of being a wanker about it. He’s worried because I have a *long* cervix, he’s worried that this baby will be ginormous like Charlie (9lbs 11oz), he’s worried that my uterus will rupture and I’ll have to have a hysterectomy…shouldn’t I be the one freaking out about all of that? I wish that he would just trust me to pay attention to my body and trust the doctor that I’ve chosen to take care of his business.

My reasons for wanting a VBAC:

1. NO CUTTING OPEN MY ABDOMEN!
2. Being allowed to hold my little girl as soon as she’s here!!!!!
3. being mobile immediately after delivery so I can take care of the bambino
4. no chance of nicks to the bowel or bladder
5. no staples involved
6. not wanting to kill someone for making me laugh 1 day post op
7. shorter recovery time
8. No stupid narcotics (I hate the way Percocet makes me feel)

Can you tell I feel strongly about this? I just feel like everyone around me (even my coworkers- who are NURSES) thinks that I’m crazy, and it’s really frustrating. I have researched the hell out of this and I am making an informed choice about my health and the health of my baby. I guess I should give a little back story…I was induced for being post dates with Charlie. I labored for 25 hours and dilated to 6-7 centimeters and then had a c-section. Inductions can cause a lot of stress for the baby because the pitocin they administer causes very strong contractions. I think if I had gone into labor on my own that I would have delivered vaginally in probably significantly less time.

 I know that there are risks, but i also know that there are risks with almost everything worth doing. When I started running,I knew that there was a risk that I would hurt myself. When I left my last job, I knew there was a risk that I wouldn’t find another one( or that it would suck as much as the old one). When I got married, I knew I might be a crappy wife or he might be a crappy husband and we’d end up like my parents. The point is that you never know how any situation will resolve itself, but it doesn’t mean that you only make what everyone else considers to be the “obvious” choice.

Getting all of that out just made me feel a lot littlebetter. Now I’m going to the park.

@ 3-4 tee ball games.

In other news, I literally almost pissed myself laughing at work today. Not cool. I kind of forgot about the joys of pregnancy bladder pressure.

No run today because of above bladder issue. I think I may have to cut back to walking exclusively. Sweaty I can handle, but peeing on myself in the street would not be good for my image.

that Spring and Fall could just alternate. Minus the allergens.

Today has been a much better day. Little man was a troop r while we were stuck at the World’s Biggest Baby shower, and then at a normal sized baby shower for my cousin who’s adopting.

It’s a gorgeous day and I have 4 miles to run as soon as the hubs gets home from work.  Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

• strong smelling cologne ( i just like clean man smell…)
• mosquitoes (I have a bad feeling about this summer)
• people who talk on their phones in public restrooms ( I am ALWAYS tempted to answer their questions just to freak them out)
• Kidz Bop (….just no…)
• my commute
• Docs who don’t listen to nurses (there are too many of them)
• clowns
• people who tell me I shouldn’t still be running at this stage of pregnancy (are you my doctor?)
• large gatherings of blackbirds (they give me the heebies bone deep)
• pollen counts above 9000!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was a craptastic day at work , and tomorrow I have to go be a volunteer at the World’s Biggest Baby Shower. With a 3 year old in tow. And stupid amounts of pollen. Blech.

Here’s hoping I’ll wake up in less of a bitchface mood. Now I will go outside and run around the neighborhood until I don’t want to punch someone in the face. End rant.